The first two trimesters of my most recent pregnancy were very revealing.
I was surprised to see how I used the quest for perfection to ‘protect’ myself from being criticised and judged and how perfection was in fact impossible, as well as my tendency to want to control others and what was going on around me to give me the feeling of being ‘safe’.
I found these trimesters to be a time of new beginnings, wiping the slate clean somewhat by letting go of these ways of being, which opened me up to the possibility of embracing more of the womanly quality of stillness that is so readily on offer throughout pregnancy.
So as I headed into my third trimester without this incessant quest for perfection or the overriding drive to control in order to ‘protect’ myself, I was feeling vulnerable. … More Embracing the true beauty of pregnancy
There is a beauty that naturally comes with pregnancy, along with the joy of having a child, which is rarely spoken about in our society.
Not only are we growing a new person (or persons) inside, we are also given an opportunity to grow as women while pregnant. Because what most of us are largely unaware of is that pregnancy is a time for us, as women, to experience ourselves more deeply as the delicate, sensitive and nurturing women we naturally are.
So pregnancy can in fact be a time where we can allow a deep change to take place in the way we live as women – a change that is initiated and supported from deep within us. … More The beauty of pregnancy that is rarely spoken about
The first two trimesters of pregnancy for me were a time of new beginnings, with the opportunity to feel what was in the way of me being able to more deeply embrace the womanly quality of stillness I naturally have. I found that during my first trimester my need for perfection was revealed, and after releasing as much of this need as I was able to, I began to see moving into my second trimester of pregnancy that it was about letting go of my need to control others and my environment.
So as I headed into my third trimester without this incessant quest for perfection or the overriding drive to control in order to ‘protect’ myself, what was being uncovered was my natural tenderness in being vulnerable. … More My Third Trimester of Pregnancy and Giving Birth – Surrendering to Being Vulnerable as a Woman
Pregnancy is a time of new beginnings and not just because there is a new person growing and developing inside. The true beauty of pregnancy is that it offers the opportunity for a deep change to take place in the way we live as women. A change that is initiated from deep within and supported by all that is offered during pregnancy.
Pregnancy is a time for us, as women, to experience ourselves more deeply as the delicate, sensitive and nurturing women we naturally are. … More The True Beauty of Pregnancy – Embracing the Stillness of a Woman
With my experiences of the Esoteric Breast Massages well established in my life now, at age 38, I am continually deepening my connection with my breasts.
I was in the shower the other morning, washing my body. When I began to wash my breasts I felt the gorgeousness of them and I realised how much they had changed. How much I had changed with them. I was handling them with such tenderness and respect, naturally, without thinking about it first. I was just doing it naturally. In this moment I realised ‘I love them’!! Wow! I love my breasts! … More My Relationship with my Breasts Deepens (Breast Trilogy – Part 3)
From the time I started to develop breasts when I was 12, until I was in my 30s, my relationship with my breasts was like most other woman around me. I shared my experience in my last article titled ‘My Relationship with my Breasts (Breast Trilogy – Part 1).’
In my 30s I became pregnant and the first physical sign of pregnancy for me was my breasts increased in size. During pregnancy they increased slowly, and by the time my milk came in after birth they were just HUGE.
Now it was time to breastfeed. … More My Relationship with My Breasts Changes (Breast Trilogy – Part 2)
The first memory I have relating to my breasts is at 11 years old. I was in 6th grade (primary school) and liked the idea of wearing a bra. My breasts had not begun to grow yet but I was interested in wearing a bra anyway. So I wore a bra to school underneath my uniform. I don’t remember the finer details of this but I do remember feeling a little clandestine about it, like I shouldn’t be doing what I was doing.
At this time I remember fantasising about what type of breasts I would like – big ones, small ones, soft ones, hard ones, attention grabbing ones, perky ones, etc. etc. … More My Relationship with My Breasts (Breast Trilogy – Part 1)
I have been pregnant twice in my life and both times the first very early sign of these pregnancies came from my breasts.
My First Pregnancy (2007)
In my first pregnancy I knew I was pregnant a few days after conception:
My breasts had grown larger, were more full and were very tender. … More Very Early Signs of Pregnancy: My Breasts Told Me I Was Pregnant (Twice!)
I knew something was amiss in the world at an early age. I struggled to understand why people didn’t want me to be how I felt inside, which was; strong, tender, sensitive, delightful, insightful, lovely. Instead people around me gave me a lot of signals to be anything but all of that. They wanted me to comply, to not ‘rock the boat’, to not speak truth or challenge what they said, to stay quiet in the background (be invisible) and not cause trouble, and most certainly to not be ‘difficult’. So, to a big extent I did all of these things that were directly or indirectly asked of me. … More Anxiety Is Not Something You Just Have To Put Up With – There Is Another Way